The Girl and the Moon

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As much as I dislike the cold that accompanies these lingering dark mornings, I savor the simplicity. As I sit in the quiet, I have only the glow from a white, rotund moon shining off to my right, to illuminate my surroundings. As my thoughts drift, and time passes, the moon fades further away. It is during these times that I find the most peace.

My world is a blank slate. I have no visual stimuli to distract me from what rests in my mind. Once the sun takes center stage, so does a plethora of distractions. But for now, things feel simple. I’m not one for clutter, not in my house nor in my mind.

Every morning I take time to pray. It is a sacred time for me. Time to stabilize myself, find my center and reconnect to who I am and what I know I need to be. I acknowledge the fact that at times the two are not always one. But I also acknowledge that the key to forming a more perfect union within myself is by first acknowledging that which separates me. I tend to see those things more clearly during these early morning hours.

The senses become more acute when not bombarded with outside interference. When it is dark, the ears sink deeper into a better state of hearing. And with that, as I talk to God, I often hear the soft voice which I long to hear during my busiest days. Days when I can hear nothing more than the chattering voice within my mind.

The me I am with you, is the me I am with God. I tend not to veil myself from either. I’m quite convinced God appreciates my honesty. I hope you do as well. As I search, and stretch the boundaries of my preconceived limitations, I have to do so first by being honest. Sometimes I like who I see within myself, sometimes I do not. But I try to see them both with clarity.

It’s easy to assume that those who walk a spiritual path do so upon a golden road, one that embraces them and provides for easy steps. I don’t believe that to be true. I feel those who are reaching the greatest, feel the most struggle. With new knowledge comes new questions. Upon discovering new truths, we stretch to peel back another layer, reaching further and further as we go. And every time we do, we break away that which we were, in able to become that which we are meant to be. Often, this is painful process. Or at least, with me it is.

Only those who have outgrown their shell feel the pain of breaking free. And its a recurrent process when continuing to grow. Only those who are not reaching, not expanding and not stretching their abilities and what they know – feel no discomfort.

So in these early morning hours, I am always like that of a butterfly about to emerge. I notice once again that my cocoon no longer fits. I push against and release the part that no longer serves me. I try never to define myself by my cocoon. Instead I am an ever evolving creation; one that may never possess one clear definition. The tree topped vista before me is now coming into view. The stars are no longer sitting in contrasting darkness. The moon has escaped behind the trees. And the sun, like all skilled performers, is taking its time before walking out onto the stage. So with that, I will say: May this day be good to you.

Sane

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19 thoughts on “The Girl and the Moon

  1. charliezero1.wordpress.com

    The woman sitting on the moon reminds me of this video from “The Smashing Pumpkins.

    The Smashing Pumpkins – Tonight, Tonight

    I do apologies for my absence. I’ve been feeling a little under the weather. But now, I am feeling great and back to reading blogs and blogging again. 🙂

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    1. SaneSamantha Post author

      And what a pleasantly dramatic song that is! Of course, I use to rock-out to Rat in a Cage. “Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage.” Such a good line. And, I’m glad you are back 🙂

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      1. charliezero1.wordpress.com

        awww…I love this song…Alice in chains are awesome! I saw them back in 97. Great show and I will never forget it. 🙂

        This is for you.

        Sneaker Pimps – 6 Underground – Official Video [HD]

        I hope you remember this song…:)

      2. SaneSamantha Post author

        Oh I know that song! Great song. Before I return to my work, I will leave you with this song, it is one of my favorites. This has been fun. Best to you 🙂

      3. charliezero1.wordpress.com

        I was a grunge-lover myself…and then I turn to Industrial music. My favorite band will always be “Nine Inch Nails” If it wasn’t for (Trent Reznors) Music I would not be here today.

        🙂

        The Toadies – Possum Kingdom

      4. SaneSamantha Post author

        I think you all approved! I really do need to post more tweets. Instead, all I do is post my blog posts. I can’t imagine anyone would want to know what I am doing or thinking throughout the day. Hmmm…

  2. debbiephilly64

    Sorry Samantha…..I meant to say how beautiful your piece is… it is really beautiful I love the pic as well… I could not find Charlie to tell him I liked his piece tonight… Im loving this piece though very much… !!! 🙂

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