I had a very rough go of it a few weeks ago. A necessary plunge that took me into the deeper waters of my inner being. I’ve had a few of those lately. I’m told, they are part of the process. Ascension isn’t for the faint of heart. But looking back, I can say it was necessary and has taken me to a higher perch from which I can view myself and the world around me.
Dear reader, I never have nor ever will write from a place of abstract ideas or theories. Every word shared comes from having already scaled the jagged outcroppings of my soul and psyche. To do otherwise would be unfair. I’m on a journey. And I’m taking you with me. And in many ways you are reading my journal entries after long days of walking toward the summit.
As you start this new year, I want to ask that you do something for me. Any journey, especially the kind we are on, can get rough. You will get tired. So set down the extra weight you are carrying. Surrender the beliefs you have about yourself and your past that don’t align with what your soul knows about you. We carry these misconceptions with us for too long. They are emotionally charged memories that create skewed beliefs. And those beliefs only serve to break our heart and hold us back. And those beliefs become the cracked lens through which we view everything, most of all, ourselves.
We are unreliable witnesses. Its not that we are flawed or lazy or malicious. It’s that we are looking through a filter of emotion and assumptions. We are not objective. So much of what you believe to be true about yourself, isn’t. Not when it’s a belief that has been formed from disappointment, hurt and heartache. The world and many of its inhabitants can lead you to believe that you are so much less than who you are. The you, your soul knows to be true. I ask that you allow yourself this leeway: your analysis may be faulty. Your memories may not be accurate. And you haven’t known the full story to even one of the life events that has tormented you and upon which you have formed so many of your beliefs.
Every awful thing you have thought about yourself. Every disappointment, every hurt, every failure you have assigned to yourself. All of it. Is untrue. I know your mind will provide evidence to the contrary. But your mind has been trained by you. Its doing what you have, repeatedly, instructed it to do. As you step into this new year, I’d like you to consider the very real possibility that you have been wrong – even if only partially – about many of the negative beliefs you’ve held about yourself.
I realize this is asking a lot. And for some it will feel foreign and fanciful. Often it requires repeated stops and unexpected discoveries of more weight we didn’t realize we were carrying. But Life will bring it to our attention. And it hurts when it does. But it’s also the most useful thing you can imagine when it comes to your spiritual journey and living the life your soul desires, but also the life you desire. You and your soul are not so far removed. Your soul is living through you, with every heart beat, every breath. You are never alone. Whether you are aware of your spiritual journey or not.
Like many of you, this last year has been profoundly painful. I’m ready for higher altitudes and a more expansive view. So let’s end this calendar year with this: we will never understand everything, dear reader. The best we can do is realize that our memories and perceptions are not always accurate. So stop hanging on to them as if they were.
Sane
Written to: Yann Tiersen – Comptine d’un autre été (Amélie)